It's been another intense week as my dad was back in the hospital for three days. Although this time was not a heart related issue. Things seem to be under control and he's doing fine at home again.
As I take a more active role in my parents lives, I seem to be more and more aware of my self. Honestly, I'd just rather not have some of those things revealed. Some not so "Christ like" attitudes come bubbling to the surface and sometimes they leap right out of my mouth, just like when I was a teenager! That is an era of life I DO NOT wish to repeat! Do you know what I'm saying? Really! How ugly those days were. Oh Man! How in the world did I ever get away with talking to my mother the way I did? um um um...There was not an ounce of "Honor thy father and thy mother" in my heart back then. Thank God for unconditional love!
I thought that I had "grown up". Well, I'm here to tell ya'll, that no matter how many birthdays we have, "self" never seems to grow up! This week I found myself acting just like a little child in deep need of a nap!
Well Praise God for reminding me, that is why we have a Savior. "Come to me all you who are weary and heavily burdened and I will give rest to your soul...". Think of that! I mean REALLY think of that. He gives rest to my soul. To YOUR SOUL! To me, that is the "peace that passes all understanding". God himself, actively guarding my heart and mind in Christ Jesus, so that I don't need to be restless and unsettled. Take a deep breath and really ingest that truth.
Situations/relationships/ministries that I am called to may remain stormy for a time, but even in the midst of that storm, when my Savior whispers in my ear, 'peace, be still', my very soul finds rest.
Thank you Heavenly Father for being the perfect parent. You take me into your arms and hold me firmly but gently until I finally s i g h, and release my self into your keeping. And thank you Jesus for being the perfect child, who even unto death and denial of your self, remained faithful to your calling and obedient to your father. I want to be more like you.
Change is good.
Matthew 11:28 ; Phil. 4:27
About Me
- Jaynee~
- I'm a Wife, Mother, Daughter, Sister, Auntie, Cousin, Friend, and most importantly an intentional follower of Jesus Christ. I'm on an adventure with Him that is about CHANGE. The goal of my faith walk, is to come out of each day looking more like Jesus. I'm good with that. But in the process, some days I turn out more like my Yellow Lab instead. It's more natural for me to get distracted, be disobedient, and especially undisciplined... What I'm learning, is that change has to happen in my life to make me look more like Jesus. Change is hard. Change is exciting. Change is exhausting. Change requires trust in God. My Lab loves company. So do I. I'll be needing your help to keep me on track, and to pat my head when i've done something good. If something I say challenges you toward change too, that would be Jesus at work. Cool! Change Is Good.